Year: 2008

Hal the computer was nuts. Maybe he’d been waiting as well. Do you think I should call this Blue Cross?

BCBS finally agreed to the MRI biopsy.  It will be next Tues. at noon.  I’m so relieved to not be waiting.  Today is Donna’s day to wait.  It is just plain hard.

This is a painting in progress.  I tried putting the grass across the face and it just mooshes in.  I will let this dry for awhile.  I’ve mixed a lighter color in with copal medium to make it smoother to drag across the surface.  See, I can be patient!  I’m better with paint than the —–insurance company.

I have the solution to health care in America.  It’s very democratic.  Everyone gets a lottery number.  Each year Congress declares the amount that will be spent on health care.  If you are high in the lottery, you receive medical treatment.  If not, so sorry.  It would work, weed out the unlucky! 

I continue working on Talisman.  I am waiting to hear what kind of biopsy the surgeon is planning, now that the MRI guided one is not available.

I still haven’t heard about my tests.  Kim is waiting to hear about tests on Kira, and Bobbi talks to her oncologist on Wed.  In the book “Dune” the Bene Gesseritt live by a code, part of which says, I think, “Fear is a Mind Killer.  I guess I should get the book and look it up.  Read it again, too.

If one won’t do the job, maybe five will!  I don’t know if it’s working or not, I’m still waiting to hear what’s next.  They saw something on the MRI and nothing on the ultrasound.  Waiting sucks, but painting makes it bearable.

I hate being in the medical system.  Not that I want to try it, but I wonder if it’s like being in the legal system?  The med system didn’t find anything like a lump on the ultrasound, just a ruptured milk duct.  Those rotten kids broke me!

The rainhat is a talisman to ward off bad stuff, the least of which is unwanted rain.  My mother died of breast cancer at age 72.  When did it start?  No one looked when she was in her 50’s.  Cancer is a disease, not a lack of character.

The MRI showed something.  Next step ultrasound.  Donna & Gregg went to see the changes they’ve done to the property formerly known as WindDancers.  I couldn’t stand to see it.  They dismantled the Llama Lodge.  I had written my birthdate in the concrete of the foundation.  We put so much work into that project.   I don’t know why it bothers me, we are but vapors.

The MRI showed a lump.  Next step is an ultrasound.